all i wanted was to help, all i wanted was to be regarded as a fren...

all i ever wanted was for ppl to accept a guy whom is stupid, not wad they thouhgt i am and treat me lik how they used to...

it hurts to be treated differently from the past...

some shared memories are perished cuz of a simple thing....

naaah,they never know wad it feels lik...

naaah...maybe its really my fault...

it me who landed myself in this state...

i really should be sad, angry plus hyrt...

i really should hate them...

but i just cant leave the one i treated lik a brother alone...

though i am nothing of that sort to him...

yeah....it sure hurts as he was lik the secobnd guy in life that i really treasured most...

now, he is gone with life...looking down on me as well as the others...

yeah , i should feel this way,but its juz hard you see...

i just cant bear that how could i let myself accept someone so easily and lettingmyself getting hurt agian...

maybe yeah i admire his mindset...

yeah he is a great person....

but its hard to befriend with a guy whom ha alot in his mind and allways wanting to do thiings with onli the person he needs to be around him....

naaah....i can put this aside, but maybe not his problems...

maybe, my help aint much help to him at all...

but yeah...a simple act of kindness...

hmmm....lead my night to a whole new suffering...

WTH! i lead myself to all this crap again...but....

haiz...my night...my peaceful night...turned out to be a miserable one...

3 way conversation on msn might be cool...

its tiring...its painful...

its painful ewhen u are in it, but u are treated invincible...

naaah...hate this feeling...

hates this kinda ppl...

fren fren la...but pain is pain la k....

bloddy piece of crap teacher! she led my life to this mess!!!

A WHOLE NEW SUFFERING FOR THE ENDING OF SEC3 CHAPTER....

mother piece of crap...i hate hypocrites lik u guys!

if oni i could.........

haiz....

thanks my love...make me smile!!!

mint