haey ppl...
guess wad...if u had read my previous blog...theres a prob occuring...n guess wad...i guessed smtin the moment i see this prob forming...n it had happened!i GOT DITCHED!by who?hmmm...by my once so called 'brother fatirah'...all ditch me...left me alone aside while they happily tokk with each other n joke around...treating as thought i dun exist...haha...i still smiled even when this happens...shermaine told me to do so...haha...

todae,during recess,i stayed in class...'they'were outside class doing wad,i dunno...haha...when they were back in class,ahmad came to me,n said'eh min,kiter da tak tahan nngan perangai kau ahk','kiter tk suker ngan perangai kau','kiter smuer nk kluar dari fatirah la'...wow!i thought...haha...but deep inside,the feeling was unbearable...i looked up at faiz n haiqal...i couldnt see their eyes...they ignored me as though this was already planned...tears started to form...but i got enough courage to stop it n tried not to be affected by it...bell rang n i went off to the toilet to change into my uniform...went out the toilet n saw rafi...shared with him about wad happened...n he told me to calm down...at tat moment,i remembered that shermine say,'juz smile'...so i put up a smile on my face n went back to class...i was lik 15 mins late for test...which means i got not enought time to do the math test...sat at my place...my mind was totally blank...flashbacks were seen...all about the time me n "bro's"spent...haiz...damn sad la actually...

but all this is normal...i guess??melayu la...all malay have this kinda attitude...boycott people they dun lik...dun lik,dun lik la...at most i suffer wad...n who cares?no one...but one thing tat i could not stop tinkin about was faiz...we spent our primary school daes together everydae...when we went to secondary school,u got new frens,which have the same talents as u do...our life changed...last year was okok even though he alwaes ignores me...but this year was totally different...haha...he cares no more bout this fren of his n off to other frens which are better then me?haha...nev mind...i beared with all this since last year...the feeling of being lsft out...haha...but nev mind...as long as others are happi rite?...sadsadsad...its not tat im lik a sissy writing all this to let u all read...but this is the onli wae for me to let out all my feelings...

4 members areout of FaTiRah...haha...reason?coz they dun lik my attitude?haha...nev mind...sae whatever u lik la...coz i know i won sae anytin to u...haha...u all BIG wad...i muz respect la...u all got damn bloody good talents wad...leaving me out...u all gt damn bloody good brains...selfishly not sharing it with me...
haha

nev mind...


take care ahk all...





haiz...


~muhaimin~
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