hey..

back home...
nite..
doin my lit wit choco..
haha

kk

im nt updating bout wad happen the past few daes..
mayb some ahk..

kk...

start wit todae...
haiz...

skip the morning...

recess...

met farina n nadiah...
haiz...
a glimpse at nadiah,i knew she gt prob...
k...
called her name...
she ignored...
so walked wit faiz n rina to the fourth floor...
did my eng hw while waiting...
saw nadiah again...
called out her name...
but she ignored...
but i tried to follow her...
she was gone when she walked at the stairs...
haiz...
kk
decided to do my work...
then saw her again,...
called out the name,n was ignored...
LOL!
i thougt...
then...
when the bell rang,it was math!
haiqal n faiz left me walking alone...
but before the bell rang...
guess wad i saw...
IZZATI n RAMADAN walking together...
i felt sometin in me...
but i kept it cool..
my body felt weak...
kk
bell rang...
n nadiah called me...
haiz...
i was in my world then...
walkin alone after being left by my bro as they scare of adrian...
haha
kk...
nadiah called me...
tokked to me bout her prob wit haruni...
my voice was quite soft...
i didn knw why...
heartpain?
haha...
haruni came...nadiah tokked to her...
they tokked lik minah...
n i was in between them...
haha
weird?
kk..
then nadiah walked awae...
didn know why she lik to do tat when im right infront of her...
haiz...
kk nev mind...
let it go..
on the wae down do 3rd floor,saw hafirul suppourting ahmad...
ahmad was lik damn.....dunno la...he was lik crying his eyes out...
haiz...i know how he felt...but its a good thing,coz he gets to know how i feel when he was with izzati...knkn???
haha
kk.tokked to him in the toilet...sent him back to class...walked back to class...haha...then my body was lik soo shaking...i could not write a single number in class...my mind was tinkin bouNADIAH n IZZATI n RAMADAN...
haiz...sad thing...my eyes were lik soo pain suddenly...then i went to toilet to wash my face....

kk...
skip the other lessons...
after sch...

rina n nadiah was there...
kk ...
tokked...
n suddenly she ignored me n tokked to haiqal...haiz...ignored tat...coz i know im not tat important to my frens anywae...juz lik my mum saes....i gt a very suay face...haiz ...trien alot of things to make ppl lik me..but too bad for me...i cant change my self ...haiz...so no one trust me too...why should i care...even bro monstarr hates my presence...felt tis too looong ago...felt tat he hated my presense...but thought tat i shouldnt care...

haiz...

k la...

now bout my life lak k???

didn know why...but ive noticed...long time ago...but didn know if i should share...
hmmm...since young,my mind alwaes have my mum words...lik those 'suay'thingy,'no one likes me'not even my cuzzies look down on me,'i will alwaes be stupid'...
n more la...

haiz...
been thinking n thinking...but didn know wat to do...my frens are alwaes liked by everyone...but im juz the opposite...no one trust me...no one likes me...no one sides me...nev mind all that...all this tat i felt,hmmm, i dunno if anyone got feel this b4 ,but it seriously hurt...i juz dunno how to get wad i dun hav...

haiz...

difiucult...patience i guess...but why?monstarr get what he want everytime...n i juz cant...dun tok bout faiz la...he get everytin he wantseven if he doesnt ask for is...maybe im juz unlucky kn???
haiz...

n n n...

i juz feel lik writin a poem for nadiah...
but i juz dunno which words to use...
haha

k la ...


be back soon!




nadiah!im there...ure nt a wall...n im not invincible...
frens are alwaes there for u...
jgn pikir sangat sal aper orng buat pat ko...
they stare u....u stare them k???

tok to u in sch ???





muhimin

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